Where your Treasure is...

I don't know about you, but my summer has been a whirlwind. I now can add professional juggler to my list of accolades, maybe not necessarily in juggling actual items in my hands but in starting a day and putting my life in perpetual circular motion with home, family, job, activities bouncing from one hand to the other.  A friend of mine described her summer as if she where a spinning top and someone wound her up and set her down to continually spin.  A lot of days I feel overwhelmed, or get the attitude that I need to just "get through" this. But as I reflected on this verse in the bible my attitude and stressed- out, control freak instinctive behaviors quieted themselves as the word of God once again came and renewed my heart with a beautiful truth.

Mathew 6:21"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." As I read this verse I noticed that my treasure leads my heart, my heart does not lead me to my treasure. I then began to ask myself, "Where is my treasure?"

Being a woman who likes to change her mind and is passionate about many things I thought; it depends- sometimes my treasure is ice cream, dessert, a new pair of jeans, in the morning it's coffee, much of my time it's my children-their needs, their lives, their schedules, the sheer honor of being a mom, my husband- alone time with him-that is treasure.  Sometimes my treasure is my job serving people and doing what I love.  Many treasures dangle themselves in front of me all the time; everyday. I continued to ponder this verse read in church Sunday morning.

Sure I know the right answer my treasure is Jesus- I grew up going to Sunday school, bible school, church camp- Jesus is our treasure; answer a. I have that imprinted on my mind and heart thankfully.  But if I get gruelingly honest is he my treasure- is my heart there with him, desiring him alone in the chaos of my daily life the majority of the time? Does everything, everyone, and every responsibility come second to him? I cannot honestly answer that yes. As I pondered and wrestled with this harsh reality throughout my day and evening-pushing through guilt, fear, and struggling with surrender I kept praying and asking God to reveal truth to my heart.  In the evening breeze as my oldest son (who will be leaving home in less than a month for a ministry internship), & I went for a bike ride. During our ride it began to become clear.

The Lord spoke this truth to my spirit.  "The treasure is here right now. I am the treasure its in me. Everything  is hidden here with me. Your desires, those you love, your very life. The treasure is now come live in the treasure. Find your heart alive in the moment. Fully participate in my creation and the love that I am pouring out over you as you view the vibrant colors of the sunset I paint for your eyes to view, as you share the sweet moments together with your soon departing son, as the fire flies come out of hiding in the brush along the trail you ride on, as you feel my presence putting breath in your lungs, enjoy the ability to pedal your feet and use your muscles to move and steer this bike, enjoy my truth; my Spirit living in and speaking to you for this moment.  Yes the treasure is me and it now..and its the next moment and the next...let your heart be alive in the treasure that you are given in me.  There is no "getting through" when your heart is alive in me- there is only life-life to the fullest, there is only peace- peace that surpasses your human understanding, there is only strength- strength to do all things through me in the treasure of this moment, there's is only grace- grace that constantly covers and sustains your wrong attitudes and issues of control, there is only ability- ability to be more than a conqueror. Come child live in this moment, live in the treasure; I am here and your heart will be satisfied."

My soul awakened once again to the life giving message of an ever patient and pursuing Savior who waits for his children to savor true treasure in him.  I found comfort in Treasure leading my heart, I don't have to make my heart follow Jesus-I cannot-my heart and soul are sealed through my salvation decision to have Jesus as my Savior; my Treasure- he leads my heart to him, over and over through times of chaos and times of quiet, through trial and celebration.

My summer has not calmed down. My schedule is still full.  But I am blessed to be living in My Treasure, Jesus, through this season in my life.