Thoughts & Confessions of a Daddy's Girl

Thoughts & Confessions of a Daddy's Girl

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

BARREN

Barren.
Bucked off a Horse.
Stuck on a mountain with hiding terrorists.
Adultery in the intimate relationship you once held dear.
Cancer.
Laid Off
Foreclosure.
I’m sorry she’s gone we did all we could.
Alzheimer’s
Depression
Divorce.
Addicted
Miscarriage
Orphaned
Abuse
Neglect
Hurtful words spoken in rage to the innocent
Planned deaths of the unborn
Bombings
Motor vehicle accident
War
Loneliness
Doubt
Shy
Prostitution
Pornography
Obesity
Greed for more
More money
More attention
More fame
More praise
Falsity
Conditional love
Fatherless
Motherless
Failed
Lied to
The liar
Fear
Unwilling to become
Pride
Proud man using woman
Proud man using children
Proud man using himself
Pride
Weeds
The unwanted
Hunger
Starvation
Sex crimes
Hate crimes
Running late
Unwilling to love yourself
Unwilling to become
Dyslexia
Speech impediments
Blind
Deaf
Death
Mentally ill
Handicap
Homeless
Perfectionist
Pleaser
Worry
Scared
Love lost
Love never found
Alone
Abandon
The one who abandon
The one who broke the vow
Manipulation
Shame
Guilt
Gluten
Hoarder
Loner
Showoff
Addict
Have I named your vice?
Your ashes
What left you broken?
What caused you to break?
The thorn in your flesh that makes you feel like a mistake?
The fall that came within your spirit
The fall that continually comes
That thing that you do that you don’t want to do
Many and ongoing you must know them as they creep in; stifle and cripple your soul
But what we must know
What must be told is that
There is one who spoke these words
“Whoa to anyone who causes one of these little one of mine to sin it; would be better for him to cast a millstone around his neck and be drug into the depths of the sea.” 
Who would speak this?
Who are the little ones?
Who is being drug into the depths of the sea?
The speaker is Jesus
The little one is me
The little one is you
With our vices or ashes so many so few
The one being drug with the millstone around his neck
Well that is me as well
That is you also
Admit it you are the victim
While at the same time you are the player
And so am I
So what to do
We are the little one who was caused to stumble
 And the one who caused the stumble to come to the little one
This horrible terrible real life truth causes fire in my soul
To think that I’ve been used
And just the same used others as well
The fire in my soul burns strong as hell
Burns long
Disturbs
Grieves
Me deep
The fire burns strong burns long
And then dies
What’s left is a pile of ashes still smoking inside
Then the speaker that said who whoever causes these little ones of mine to fall speaks another phrase that gives hope to the soul
He says
I give crowns of beauty for ashes
Gladness for mourning
Praise for despair
He speaks to the little one
And the one in the sea
He says take my yoke my burden is easy
This trouble this trial
This sin that you’ve caused
Was never my plan
My will
For you
But I make a plan through it all
For my perfect way to shine through
So when the sin happens
When the trial comes
Know it is not from me or above
But I am there in, around, under, and through
All that is happening and my plan is true
To give back the beauty that left ashes burning
To wipe your tears of mourning and bring back your joy
I will tell you the truth of your worth and sing your praise
Where once all you could see was despair and the rain
Where I stand I see all the little ones left crying in the sand
And the one with the rope drug by their own plan
Into the depths of the sea left floating to die
I see it all
I see all
From beginning to end and that is how I can
Be the healer, restorer and one who makes new
All that is abandon
Broken and
Dead
I come to give life
I have a new plan
I Am
My sacrifice
My pain on the cross
Where the sin and hurt all hung
No I did not cause the disaster of the fallen
But I gave you choice and a complete freedom
To do life your way and that left so many tangled webs
 That the only way for you to be complete again
Was for my son to hang
On a cross
Without sin
And for my spirit to the earth be sent
To untangle the sin webs of fallen man
And allow the will of a loving Creator
To be the beauty in the ashes of the little one who stumbled
And the one in the sea completely humbled
So little one wipe the tears from your eyes and stand up
Drowning man I pull you out of the depths to dry off
And there you all stand my creation who chooses to come
Bow at the cross for all that is wrong
The ground is level there
No better no worse
Just complete forgiveness for all and rebirth
And there we will dance on the ground at the foot of the cross
We will dance free in forgiveness
Close your eyes and let freedom ring
The clouds pass over and the terrible misery
Is gone in a moment
He lifts you up high
And you discover yourself on a mountaintop
Sun shining in the sky
And you dance and rejoice as you bask in the Son
Look at the glowing faces of all who have chosen to come
The noose was loosened and removed from our necks
We are no longer the little one stumbling
Our feet are planted firmly on The Rock
We are sealed with a promise
Cannot be snatched from his hand
Know that your name is written in the palm of his hand
But not only there in the Book of Life too
Eternity is waiting
All the promises will come true
Of the things that you just welcomed in your heart from afar
They are not distant
They are becoming
Behold here they are
The treasures stored up
In the place where you kept your heart
What will you receive on that day?
Money
Possession
Fame
And praise
The coming day when all you have done
Is judged
Or will it be rewarded
In the eyes of the Son
The choice is yours my friend
Jesus sets you free
But you still must live and prepare for eternity
The things of this world are fleeting so fast
They will continually tempt you
Test you
And taunt your mind
They will promise falsely and want you to believe they are fine
They will bring
Pleasure
Joy
Fun
For a season
But eventually
Silently so slyly tie the noose back on
And lay pebbles in front of your path
The pebbles may be charming
Petite
Dainty at first
Pleasant for the eye to gaze
All at once in front of you they will become
Boulders
Rocks
Craters
Mountains to climb
Do not be fooled little one look into His eyes
The noose may feel at first life a chain of jewels on your neck
Complimented and prized by so many
But ever so slowly so gradually it will tighten
As the vice in you once more
Tries to enlighten
And hold you away from the Savior who came
But the truth is in you
You must pull away
Do not look at others who are climbing over rocks of their own
Do not compare the noose of your neighbor to your s
Look inside
Look deeply
Search your heart
And kneel down
Surrender to your Savior
Daily
Hourly if you must
He will not turn away from you or look on you with disgust
Tell him right now
How it is
Like it is
He longs for you to come back to the mountain top dance
Come Child
Now
Before the evil one takes an advance
Sanctify
Persevere
Renew
Restore
Redeem
Rescue
Give back what the Locust ate
He is here waiting
Do not delay

The thief comes to steal
Kill
Destroy
Leave you
BARREN
I have come to give you life and to give it to your abundantly
Heaping
FULL
Overflowing
LIFE
ALIVE
LIVE
NO LONGER BARREN
AGAIN

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