Before you Cross the Line

Some thoughts have been dancing around in my head
they come and go and I leave them unsaid
but as I sit here in the quiet of this hour
I wonder if these thoughts could have a greater power.
To minister, heal and be a light in the dark
To capture even the most stubborn of heart
The words to come upon this page may seem to some to be said out of hate
Angry, fear, sadness and grief
But know my friend I only write to bring relief
A clarity perhaps into confusion
Where it is unveiled the road that you've considered choosing
I've chose it too
I 've dreamed of living in the gray
And even lived it out I'm so sorry to say
Felt the effects of others living it out too
The gray of someone fleeing away
That was once held dear and so close inside
But true love in Christ must not hide
Cover up
Mask or give a haughty impress
Bring your ear close friend and give a listen
not to the tragedy that I've faced
But to truth and consequences
that I thought would steal grace
From the precious ones I hold so dear and to my own shaking spirit drenched in fear
so today dear soul as she slowly combs her fingers through her hair and ties you in with her glances and stares
And his conversation sweet as honey
please listen friend
This sorrowful message that I now send.
It starts with a glance a look a wavering thought and for many a reason it lingers on the secret dark and hidden away grows more the lust day after day until the telling moment when you break the bond you made to your best friend and cross the line you swore never to
You've climbed the fence and sat on its edge
the pain of sitting in the middle of gray you could not do for one more day
Of living fake and living double
You crossed the line not thinking of the trouble
The ripple effect; the truth of consequence
Who are you now
do you have a defense
The looks the glances the innocent words are now all gone it has all taken a turn for the worst
But worst right now it might not seem
 maybe a relief to you it will bring
but only for a season
and for the most shallow of all reasons
You justify mull and preach to yourself in your head
as the you you once were lies silent and dead
its captured and gagged and locked tight away
You are now the new you where you feel a new day
the grass seems greener
day seems clear
But oh friend here me it is drawing so near
where the you locked away must come out
You will find it bit by bit starting with a whisper and slowly growing to a shout
You will see it first in your bank account
That leaves you in a negative state as it unfolds it will be a most unfortunate of fates
that is only the surface friend
the you inside is begging to see the falseness that lust made you to be
And pride its most truest companion of all
They say it comes before the fall
fall you did in their little eyes
so innocent as you take a look in their grief stricken skies
The battle they suffer because of your sin
Is hurting them even deeper within
Where they question God and all that they once held true
of family and fun and the hero they saw in you
The pain if you look is the most frightening to the heart
when all that was safe if torn apart,
So if you are there friend, with lust whispering in your ear
And the security of pride taking hold of you
Flee
Run as fast as you can
Do not look back even for a glance
I promise you friend take this bold and daring chance
be vulnerable in the confession state
Do it now you must
do not wait
Their eyes have not yet cried those horrific tears
you have not yet heard the silence where there was once peace and love
Friend turn and run
If my friend you are sitting on the fence teetering back and forth to and fro
On a black and gray see saw controlling your soul
take a step back
stop teetering on the fence
you can still return you can still live right
Turn around
Get off
Do not hide
Light will shine forth on you
Tend your garden
Make it fresh and renewed
Water the flowers let their roots grow deep
the produce of joy you will soon reap
And peace like a river
Will flow strongly through you
connecting to the source
of who delivers you
And reconciles you again to his son
 live in your garden my friend
Spring has sprung
 new life is waiting
 the fantasy was a farce
a cheap deceiving counterfeit lie
from the pit of hell
do not deny
Its roots are shallow
its reality was fake
Look in front of you and see
 be alive
be awake
live in your moments with the people who love you
commit
and recommit
to the life given to you